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2010-07-09T11:06:00.004+08:00

1 campaign plan for Institute of Mental Health, 1 final report writing due next friday.
6 journals, 6 assignments, 1 research writing due the following friday.
Exams, the week after.

I dont know where I could find time to complete all the assignments. Let alone sparing time to study. My off days are not giving me enough time for all these.
Exam dates are not out, I cant get my off days planned.
I can only think of taking MCs.

I'm setting aside 2k to retake the module.
There goes my savings. If I have to retake module again next semester, I'm probably working to pay for my retaking modules. ):

I dread work, I dread assignments.
I dread every single thing that's happening to me now.
I dread every day, without fail.
Everyday I wake up, I dread thinking how my day would start and end.
I dread my life.

But I know, I have to press on.

2010-07-06T14:22:00.005+08:00

I privatised this site sometime back cos I thought this would be most ideal place where I could rant about my problems, my sadness.
Of cos, no one saw,
no one heard any of it.

Since I havent got time to update much, and at the same to avoid answering about my sudden locking of blog, I publicized it again but deleted a few entries (prolly like 1 or 2). And now, I still havent got the time to pen anything down.
That's prolly why this site seems stuck since Feb.

From my last entry till now, things have changed drastically. And many events occurred, like Limelight concert, my birthday (which I have many to thank especially Eugene), Sook's 21st, my changing of job and studies.

Ever since working in MBS, I began to lose touch. I feel that I've lost the sense of humanity. Work has robbed me of my time from doing things I really want to do. And typing data entries everyday isnt gonna get me there.

I miss being involved in all these activites.

I want to do something fruitful like this. I have to.
Because doing these, it makes life worth living for.

2010-02-17T11:10:00.003+08:00

I was watching E entertainment when they talked about the new version of We Are The World being released. So I went on Youtube to look at it.

I thought Michael Jackson and Lionel Richie was really awesome to have done this back then.! (:

But somehow, many people prefer the original version.

1985- USA for Africa

25 years later for Haiti

Michael Jackson remained in the new version, just that it was enhanced with Janet Jackson's vocal. I thought the latter was good too, though many people are criticizing it. Nonetheless, I love it.

Oh btw, Enrique Iglesias? so hot. ^^

2010-02-16T10:24:00.009+08:00

Hello folks.!
Happy Lunar new year (:

This year's CNY was a really good cousins gathering. I think we should meet up more rather than seeing one another once every year.! ^^

So met up with Eugene for a short while on Valentine's. I was pleasantly surprised by his gift (and expected more of manderin oranges as gift), since he got me very upset the night before. His little gesture could totally change my mood around and make me smile with gleefulness! ♥

He got me this cos my $10 watch was spoilt. And more importantly, to improve time management for myself.

For now, I've got tons to do.
I wanna lose weight! And I need to.

2010-01-19T16:23:00.005+08:00

To linda: Eh woman.! Happy 21st ^^
You're like da jie, everytime also celebrate birthday first. Anyhow, love u much.! (:

Linda's mini party was a good one, prolly becos of the company. And it had been a while since I saw some of them. I'm having difficulties posting pictures up here, so I'll prolly just have one up.

And girlfriends, I love you tonnes. Cheers to our 10 years plus of friendship, and I know there'll be many more years to come (:

And it's so true when they say birthdays are loathesome after you turn 21. Because I've prolly already felt that way since my 19th passed. Slowly but surely, I can no longer surprise people with my young age.

Anyway, I've got a lot to update on. Like a lot. I just came back from Batam 2 weeks back, and I wanted to post up pictures here. But blogger's being difficult. Nonetheless, the pictures aint anything exciting. The most exciting thing we did there would prolly be Jet Skiing, but I didnt take any photo of it. And without a doubt, the most that I enjoyed was the companion I had when I was there. (:

And bff's coming back. I swear I'm gonna bring her to Body worlds. ! I miss this girl so much that I can't emphasise enough. I miss it even more when we would stay out late at Raffles Place in wee hours of the night, till next morning. She's prolly my only soulmate for silly stuff like this. I love her. <3

On a side note, I think I'm getting mundane already. This getting-sick-of-everything-around-me feeling is acting up again. Then again, such relapse doesnt stay for long.

Alright, I'm leaving for KL on Thursday. Hopefully, I'll be able to come back with more updates.

And btw, Happy belated new year. ^^

2009-12-26T05:43:00.003+08:00

I was watching Kimora early this afternoon, and I thought as a mother, she's a really good role model. She places her children above all else. She cossets them and could treat them like friends, yet at the same time, maintain that motherly authority in her.

No doubt, every parent wants the best for their children. More so, if it is the only child they have. In all ways, they try to shield them from harm. Be it friends or things, if they're harmful, parents always make sure their kids stay away.

But as toddlers turn into adolescents, they began to develop their own mindset and start to choose their own friends. That's when parents began to worry for their kids. That's when parents have come to the crucial point. The point where their child could no longer be manipulated the same way. The point where the kids go against their words. The point, where parents could only persuade or advice, all in the hope that their words would not fall into deaf ears. If all else fails, they could only turn to their children's peers to rant.

We want to be in the good books of everyone. Or just hope we dont invite critics, we try hard to be. Then we lose ourselves. Becoming arduous to a point where we stop trying, having to realise that it isnt possible to please every single one. Especially when circumstances disallow us to do so.

And consequently, critics begin to resurface. It then becomes burdensome to put on a facade of nonchalance when in fact, your emotions took a huge turn in the inside. Worse still, when those critics have to be passed to a third party, before it reaches you.

I believe, since young, we are often being taught the same moral values. What sets us apart, is the mere difference of methods that our parents used.

And I believe, we are equal. No one is to judge another. No one.

2009-12-23T23:58:00.003+08:00

Yesterday saw me with Jeanna at Vivo. She was crapping alot while helping me to choose my gift for the gift exchange, mostly describing to me how amazing her gift was. And exactly how amazing it was, I didnt know it until the gift exchange. Cos she refused to tell me wad it was when we were shopping. =/

Mango's having massive sale. ! But seriously, none of their clothes caught our eyes. And I eventually settled for a basic long sleeve top. Anyhow, I bought bought shoes and skirt from Far East. So by the time me and Jeanna went to meet them at Wheelock, they'd alr placed their orders for dinner. lol!

I thought the dinner was pretty much mediocre. Prolly it was the company we have that made the whole thing so hyped up. ! Especially during photo taking and gift exchange! ^^

And we exchanged gifts by drawing lots. Coincidentally, I drew my own name twice. ! Which they had to redo it for quite a few times.! And I was telling them that I saw a tumbler from Starbucks which I almost wanted to buy for the gift exchange (I've always wanted a Starbucks tumbler btw), and hopefully drew my own name so I could take home my own gift.! :p

I got Jolyn's bodyshop lotion. ! And mine went to Jonathan. ! Hee, and I can so tell Jon likes my gift. !

Thereafter we roamed around Orchard and started taking photos with the Christmas tree. We've been doing this every year ever since secondary days. If I hadnt had to reformat my com, I could've have laid out all the different photos that we took every year alr. =/

It was really nice of Kayminn to carry my shopping bags for me, which was really cumbersome.
And this year's Christmas trees is really different cos it allows us to go inside the tree. !(:

Okay, I'm typing my entry first then pictures later, cos I'm having problems aligning the sentences with the photos. Anyhow, Love u girls plenty.! And I wish Meilin was with us. !

My cough is worsening alr. I could literally feel phlegm at the back of my throat, but I couldnt get it out at all. =/

Apologies that the entry looks a tad long and mundane, cos I've been doing this for hours boo.

2009-12-23T14:07:00.001+08:00

blogger is so screwed up. I'm having so much difficulties uploading my photos here. I'll prolly talk more about it later.

For now, I shall go get prep up for Kerri's farewell. ! (:

2009-12-20T23:10:00.004+08:00

I think i'll hire Cupid
He'll make you see I'm more than your friend

Exams had long been over. Though I've been pretty lazy to blog (since I know not many visit here as often due to my lack of updates), I somewhat found a source of motivation. Prolly good enough to make me wanna pen down all my thoughts and activities in this site again. Even if it's only just one being that bothers to drop by often enough, it's fulfilling. (:

Ever since after Corporate Finance paper, I've been contemplating if I should change my majors. So before school starts again next year, I'm prolly gonna head down to school one of these days to consult bout this. And I'm also in need to change my blog skin. ! I'll prolly take my time to search for a nice one during this holiday. ^^

On a side note, I prolly look awfully horrid in this picture, but I cant bother much. Eugene's leaving for Indonesia tmr. And I'm gonna miss this fella. ):

Eugene dude, you indeed left such a significant year for me. And surely, without your calls and texts during this period, I'm gonna need a lot of getting use to.
Nonetheless, come home safely. ^^

2009-12-19T14:27:00.003+08:00

I cant wait for 23rd, really. (:

2009-11-27T02:15:00.002+08:00

BFF and Jolyn, faster come back.

Dont stay in foreign land for too long. This is your home.
So please come back, like right now.

2009-11-23T09:50:00.015+08:00

Don't worry about that extra line that's creeping up upon your face
It's just a part of nature's way to say you've grown a little more

Happy anniversary <3

I'm prolly the last to talk bout this, since I havent got the time to blog.
Nonetheless, It was a good catching up. Love you babes, always.

Oh, I just got a msg that my class later has been cancelled. Shortly after, Audrey called to say that she was bout to leave her house for school already. And I was telling her that I was about to rush for shower. So the msg prolly came at the right time.lol!
Good, now I can take my time to dilly dally, since I'm meeting them at late afternoon. I prolly need to set aside time for self study soon.

It's been a really really long time since I last had my eye shadow and liners on. And it's been almost forever that I felt I'm properly dressed up. I cant wait for exams to be over. I wanna play.! I wanna dance dance dance.!

And to have attended classes almost everyday for the past weeks, I've been taking a lot of train rides during peak hours lately. And sometimes, it can be really ironic to see extreme expressions at the same time.
Just like how in a train you could see a group of folks laughing out and yakking their time away. As you turn, there would be others. Others that look so worn-out after a day of hectic work. And others, that simply, look down and out. That's when you began to wonder. You wonder if any one in the cabin is sharing the exact emotion as you.

To see faces of joy, dejection or apathetical, somewhat, it's a comfort.
At the very least, you know that you are not alone.

2009-11-04T11:04:00.000+08:00

Hello SarahSam. Happy birthday.!

Tehee, and I wonder if ur weight has shot up.
Or is it just my eyes playing tricks, that your fb somehow shows ur clavicle being buried up. Hahahha, Okay I was kidding. Blessed birthday Sam.!
Love you still! ^^

2009-11-03T01:06:00.003+08:00

Doing little things that make a difference to others.

Little things yet so fulfilling, and doing things like this easily make me a happy girl. (:
Somehow, it just reminds me the reasons why I chose Nursing for back then.

It's all about reaching out, and doing ur part.

Anyhow, do tell me if u have any secondhand ricecooker or any small portable stove (still in useable conditon) that u wanna give it away k!

2009-11-01T10:43:00.005+08:00

"Other than swimming, you wanna go running? We can use the treadmill?"
"I dont run like hamster"

Though that didnt mean to be a joke, it literally cracked me up. At least brightened me a little from sucha lousy day I'm facing.

Now that exam is over, I can finally blog my stuff.
And ladies, I'm very much looking forward to our special day.
Dearest SisJean's suggesting NYDC which I totally second to that.! Mudpies.! ^^

I was helping mom at the clinic last night. Somehow, I found that it's nice to have patients sharing their stories and whatnot while waiting for the doctor. It was interesting, and really heartwarming as well. (:

For now, I've got assignments to do.
mindoverbodymindoverbodymindoverbodayyyyeeeeeeeee.
I Want To Do Assignments.

And Audrey Siow, I know u so dread it. Hahahah! Thanks uh, send me an essay to read. I like reading wiki can!

2009-10-23T13:08:00.008+08:00

Boybands. That's prolly like our favourite past time.

The lyrics are totally cliche, and the songs can be passe and all. But still, I think they sound so nice even till now. It's really sad to know bout Stephen Gately's death.

And I'm singing their song for dunno-how-many-times in my room alr.

2009-10-22T21:41:00.002+08:00

I saw this on fb, and I thought the way he played the barisax was superb.

2009-10-20T23:58:00.006+08:00

Eugene dude, Happy 22nd birthday!

I've got so much to say, but I'm not gonna do it here. And surely, there're things which cannot be measured in mere words. Anyway, I hope you enjoyed ur day today, be it with ur parents or friends.
This year has been a roller coaster ride indeed. From an acquaintance, to getting to know you better, and your friends thereafter. And really, having to know such wonderful friends like yours, is something I truly thank you for. I couldnt ask for more.
And having to know you, I feel I'm slowly growing up. You taught me so much, in many ways. Though it might be hard and disappointing at times, you never fail to make me learn. I thank you for not giving up (yet!) and your patience towards my flaws, which I'm really grateful for.
Nonetheless, happy birthday! Got ur back always. ^^

2009-10-19T23:58:00.006+08:00

Saturday's practice was a small yet efficient one. We finally went through our first piece for Polka.! And really, I cant wait for a full attendence rehearsal. ^^

Then again, I think I'll need a couple more practices to pick up my rhythm, embouchure and stamina. Because everytime after 20 bars or so, my lips will start to feel tired and numb ):

Nonetheless, it was a good one. ! And I'm looking forward to the intensive rehearsal in December. Plus Band camp. ! :D

YAY. ! The piece we playing for Polka. ! ^^

My ever-so-wonderful Barisax which I used to be really proud of. ^^

The contrast of 2 instruments.

We also sight-read some pop pieces.

The brass section.!

Now's actually going to 3 am, which means it's already Tuesday. And I'm feeling really tired. Because just 2 hours ago, I was making a mess out of my kitchen.

I'm gonna sleep, goodnight peeps.

2009-10-18T23:32:00.002+08:00

Happy 20th Josco. !

I think this is the second time I post this picture up for ur birthday, cos other than this, I couldnt really find any nicer shots taken with u. Furthermore, this picture marks the second time I saw u again after for not seeing u for 3 years. Anyhow, happy birthday dude. And I'm thankful, really.

For a friend who listens to all my rants. Somewhat u just know better. You know that whenever I call for you, its spells something bad. But you never fail to shun away from my sulks, my rants. And I'm thankful more so that u never give up encouraging me (though u can be mean at times, but I know those mean-ess wasnt on purpose, but only to spite me.lol! ).

Like you said, for a friend like you, I really thank Big G for it. Blessed birthday dude.

ps: Go wipe ur tears. I know ur crying.

2009-10-15T20:53:00.005+08:00

Sunday afternoon became a good one when Josco asked me out for a swim at my place.

The weather was good, and we saw quite a handful sun bathing by the pool. So basically, he swam while I watched people, and snapped a bit of photos. (:

Yo Josco. I think u look good here. Quick, click on it to save. ! :p

I didnt post any photo of me here cos josco only snapped ugly shots of me. Boo.

Thereafter, I came home to shower and then rush off to meet Kellyn Linda and Shuwen. I asked them to meet me earlier cos I intended to get SisJean a cake. !

So we settled for a decent one, and headed to Azubo (I think) for dinner, since we've always wanted to try their food there. And I'm glad Jeanna liked it, as well as the present we got for her too. ^^

Then we headed to Starbucks after dinner. That's when I received a call from Garry all the way from Melbourne. ! Though I didnt manage to pick it up cos my phone wasnt with me at that time, it was nice enough for us to exchange sms-es. And he said he's coming back this Friday. ^^

For now, I'm really in need to get myself sit down proper and do a thorough read through for my test. =/

2009-10-12T20:16:00.004+08:00

For only by His grace I am redeemed.
And only His tender mercy, could reach beyond my weakness to my need.

Studies or work aint going smooth, everything just somehow seems to take a turn for the worse. Making one feels all down and out. That's when he starts to cling on tighter to the faith which he had once let loose. At the very least, it gives him hope despite how bleak the future may seem.

I miss chapel. Because after every session, it taught me something new. It never failed to instill me values. Values that supposedly make me a better being. Yet ironically, I'm now ashamed to have become someone otherwise. Someone who only become spiritually faithful due to circumstances. Someone, who takes gains and blessings for granted.

I may seem lackadaisical. And I may seem ignorant to my surroundings. But that's a verdict people set entirely just by the surface.

I've mentioned it here before. And I'm saying it again.
I think. A lot. And I too, have goals and ambitions. My future may seem bleak for now. But I've got it planned for me way before. Just because I choose to not share my thoughts doesnt make me a nonchalant being. And just because I choose to keep things to myself doesnt mean I do not plan or know what I want. Rather, I'm fully aware of things, and I care.

Even to the slightest, insignificant issue, I care.

2009-10-11T23:56:00.003+08:00

It's Sisjean's birthday today. But I guess I'll blog about it the next time.

For now, I wanna wish her happy birthday.

Happy 20th Sisjean. !

You're a year wiser now. And also a friend whom I've known for the longest period. I want u to know that I still love u, eventhough our opinions may cross at times. Just as how you've seen me grown throughout the 1 plus decade, I've seen u ~~aged~~ too. And I really treasure our friendship. And more importantly, I treasure you for being you.

PS: We are the ultimate sisters, simply becos we rock the weather. (:

2009-10-10T17:00:00.007+08:00

I'm having a relapse of feeling stress for not feeling stress over test syndrome.
It's like my test is coming, but i dont feel stress bout it. And it's somewhat worrying =/

Finance Law's like information overload, and the class is so small.

But I love Workplace Law the best. Prolly cos it's much easier to understand. And I think my assignment mates are quite nice bunch.
And I like the fact that I've got a big class. It's high time that me and Audrey do some networking soon.

Plus, I must say that I've got the best teacher throughout my entire years of learning. He just makes lesson so interesting. ^^

Anyhow, I stumbled upon a video on speed driving from Jessica's fb. And I thought it's really good.

My shoulders are getting really stiff, and it feels like it's gonna get serious cramps any time soon. ):

2009-10-05T23:38:00.008+08:00

HappyKids Day gathering (:

Basically, it was a simple dinner followed by lantern cum mooncake at Fort Canning.!
And really, it was nice meeting the girls. ^^

Yo, my sitting-next-to-me buddy of 3 years. ^^

I'm in love with Polaroids. And I wish I have one. ):

And Weiting made mooncake for us. ! (:

Whoever said that friends are hard to come by, I second to that.

Becos I realised I'm losing some of them. Some whom I once thought were important to me. And of cos, taught me much in one way or another.

Okay, I'm prolly referring to a specific individual. An individual that was once significant, which took me till now to have realised. And sadly enough, had already left me.

2009-09-25T23:50:00.007+08:00

Sometimes, I hope for you to understand.

Tonight, the journey home seemed like an arduous travel.

I can't rmb the last time I experienced this sense of angst and uncertainty. But tonight, this familiarity came creeping back and gradually took over me.

Just as I tried to seek comfort, I had no one. And for the first time, you made me feel lost.

2009-09-17T20:15:00.007+08:00

What's important, is that we never stop believing that we can have a new
beginning. - Meredith Grey

I woke up early afternoon, greeted by the slight glare of sunlight outside my window.

Still, that didnt stop me from getting outta bed. As I dawdled on my bed, wrapped in my cosy blanket, I snapped an angle of the little room.

And I think the camera in my phone is lousy.

Oh, did I mention that I'm recently on a high dose of Grey's Anatomy again? Sky high. So much that I feel I've lost interest in almost everything else. Literally.

And each time when the commentaries come, Meredith Grey somehow just makes sensible remarks.

<3

I need to exercise.
But for now, I'm off to watch Grey's. ^^

2009-09-10T10:23:00.009+08:00

Lesson wasnt fruitful yesterday, but it was enjoyable playing with the kids ! (:
They didnt wanna have Science lesson no matter how I insist. So we started doing silly things.

I love this shot that I took. (:

The cute Pri 5 batch. ^^

Then the Pri 6 came in, and they started fiddling with my phone.

They snapped me while I was helping them to do the work that I assigned them to do. =/

Then I began video-ing them doing silly things like rolling on the floor.

Still playing with my phone, one of them snapped this shot while I was showing the video.

Then they got curious about my camera. And asked me to teach them how to use.
The next thing I know, was that they started fiddling my camera as well.lol.!

So one was using my phone, while the other two was busy running around snapping photos.
They even snapped a boy outside toilet changing clothes after showering. ! Hahahha!

Playing with my Motorola still.

They took more pictures while I was teaching.

I felt quite bad. Cos beside me there's another tutor teaching his student. And his student got distracted by mine. =/

The really active boys.

The photos were mostly taken by them. I even have a video of them showing me MJ's Moonwalk. Hahaha!

Though they're prolly a little mischievous, they're really an adorable bunch. And somehow, I'm growing a liking towards them. (:

Anyway, I'm looking forward to the 19th. !

YAY. ! ^^v

2009-09-06T23:55:00.002+08:00

Powerhouse was really crowded yesterday. And the music was really awesome throughout the night. If it wasnt for my sore feet and the serious human congestion, I'd have stayed on till the end with the rest. !

Nonetheless, I still enjoyed myself. Cos the music was really really niceeeee. ! (:

I totally love this shot. ! lol

The really congested dancefloor. ):

I left them for home around 2ish, cos my feet was really killing me. Anyhow, school's starting tmr. I should head to bed alr. And I wonder how bff's doing in Shanghai. =/

But right now, I kinda feel a little lost. :(

2009-09-05T20:15:00.002+08:00

I spent the entire night with bff last night. And still, I think nothing beats our usual favourite of walking to Esplanade and sit along the riverside just to talk random stuff and watch random people. (:

Thereafter, we walked to Cathay with the intention to catch night rider. But Rebek suggested an impromptu plan of watching a midnight show. And I think Danceflick is really lame.lol.!

Okay, I'll end off with a shot I took with her today.

Rebek, I can't wait for 14 February to arrive, just so you'll be back.

So much gonna happen when ur away. And, Polka! V

You wont be participating with me alr. ):

But it's alright, we can still skype. !

I love you bff. <3

2009-09-02T02:37:00.005+08:00

Once again, it's a beginning of a new month. And to start my entry off, I wish september babies happy birthday. (:

Last weekend saw me doing something rather unusual together with Eugene's friends. We rushed finished the jigsaw puzzle in wee hours of the night at Eugene's, and made it just in time the following day. I prolly contributed the least. Oh well, jigsaw puzzle aint easy after all. Becos after a while, you just lose motivation. =/

I dont have the photos, so I just ripped them off from facebook.! :p

So cute, chicken feet lookalike.

Colourful macaroons as birthday cake. (:

For Peijing.! (:

Yo Foursies, you guys prolly wont be seeing this. But still, Happy Sept' birthday.! (:

2009-08-31T15:12:00.006+08:00

Meeting up with Kellyn was good.! Somehow, meeting up with her always got both of us updated on things. And I'm glad that we can still exchange our silly thoughts like how we did back then in school.

And seeing her getting troubled over certain issues and wanting to work as soon as possible got me thinking quite a bit about my laid back attitude towards everything. I've been nonchalant since almost forever, and having friends around me wanting to work and such indeed got me motivated to do likewise, and earn for myself.

Yo woman, you know I love you <3

Now, I've gotta catch bff before she leaves for China for 6 months. ):

2009-08-27T23:09:00.000+08:00

In life, we learn to let go. We learn to move on.

Memoirs, a common possession of every being. Some choose to enjoy reminiscing the honeyed past, while others, they struggle painful flashbacks. Either way, both live life through every day.

We live only once. And our past, Where every event is a lesson learnt. Where every recount, teaches us to not take our loved ones for granted like how we used to back then, mould us to a better person in the aftermath. Where every episode allows us to experience extreme emotions of either happiness or dejection. A past, which justifies every being to feel joyful, yet at the same time, anguish over it.

Because we live only once, we are obliged to live life to its fullest. So, shouldnt we learn to take things in stride? Shouldnt we learn to let go, and move on? Shouldnt we learn to look forward to whatever our present and future has installed for us instead of clinging on to the vestiges of the remains that remind us of the past?

To live is an obligation. To how we live it, is an option.

2009-08-18T00:40:00.014+08:00

To start this entry off, I wish Yanqi Happy 21st. ! (:

Happy birthday senior (:

The party was really enjoyable. More like a StMarg's gathering for us as well. And the whole place was so blue. Blue room, blue ballons, blue people. I like. ! (:

Yo Karen. (:

Filling the Guestbook.

Cliqque's turn taking photo with Yanqi.

Kellyn Dearest.

The cake was awesome.

Happy Birthday Yanqi. ! (:

Then at the end, Audrey Faiz and Xiuxiang started taking in Helium, and ended up talking like chipmunks.! Though it was only for a short while, I felt nolstagic when we started singing the School's song outside. Thereafter, we gave up the idea of staying over and I took a bus home. And silly enough, I left my watch there.

When life brings pain, when trials us defy
Our faith, our hope, our discipline require
us to withstand respond with spirit high
St. margaret shall again inspire.

Somehow, I cant wait for the next Polka!

And I need to get my nails fixed, soon.

2009-08-15T13:16:00.005+08:00

Once is enough for me to learn,
I need no second.

But it still came. And I keep asking myself why.

2009-08-14T14:02:00.008+08:00

I’ll never know how much it cost
to see my sin upon that cross

I've been dreaming a lot lately. Dreams that seemed real.
I think it's prolly cos I've been sleeping too much. I wont be surprise if my tearing-while-sleeping syndrome relapses. ):

2009-08-12T23:33:00.014+08:00

"Dont put too much till your basket break. Spread your eggs. "

Yes, I cant believe that the theory I've used to advise on my girlfriends, they're now throwing those exact words back at me. And whenever they remind me of this, I cant help but to feel helpless. Simply cos something which I thought could easily be done, is actually not that easy after all.

So today marked the end of my bridging course. I screwed the paper, cos I didnt study. Jeanna couldnt make it for study session today, neither could I concentrate at home. Then I decided to head to school earlier to revise. But before I could start my revision nice and proper, this acquaintance whom I used to have a little crush on back then, came over and politely asked to join revision with me. Honestly, I've forgotten his name since the beginning of school last year. It was only till now when we had introduced ourselves properly, followed by a proper conversation for the first time.

He was nice to teach me a bit of Finance, just a bit. Thereafter we got carried away with some other topics. As we were conversing, it made me realise that all these months, I haven't been myself. I've grown to become so focus and had my time revolved only around a small group of individuals that I began to shut myself from anyone else who passed by. And my vision, it turned so narrow that I became oblivious to friends. Friends, who were once close to me.
His teaching didnt really help much. And by the time we'er done with our conversation, it was exam.

So you can roughly know that I went into exam room with all else but Finance in mind. And coincidentally, we both finished our papers at the same time. (As usual, Sisjean finished her paper so fast that she left without me). We were supposed to head home together since we stay near each other. But I needed some me-time that I decided to cook up some excuse to head to cityhall, while he went bugis. It was lame, cos in the end, I realised we were in the same train.

While on the way home, I got a msg from Louis asking me for drinks. So I waited for him at Tampines, while he cabbed down. It was a nice catching up. ! And I feel delighted when he said that I've got a nurse face that could make patients feel at ease. Aww, makes me feel like a saint. ^^

Now that bridging's over. I can play. ! ((:
And I'll end off with some pictures we took weeks before.

With ~~Jolyn's cousin,~~ louis' gf.

I love you oml.! But I'll love you more if you teach me to slim down.

Yo Louis.

Aww, the head over heels couple. Hahahaha!

2009-08-11T11:49:00.005+08:00

This world is full of broken things.

Broken hearts, broken promises, broken people. This world, too, is a fragile construct, a honeycomb place where the past leaches into the present, where the weight of blood guilt and old sins causes lives to collapse and forces children to lie with the remains of their fathers in the tangled ruins of the aftermath.

I am broken, and I have broken in return. Now I wonder how much hurt can be visited upon others before the universe takes action, before some outside force decides that enough has been endured. I once thought that it was a question of balance, but I no longer believe that. I think that what I have done was out of all proportion to what was done to me, but that is the nature of revenge. It escalates. It cannot be controlled. One hurt invites another, on and on until the original injury is all but forgotten in the chaos of what follows.

I was a revenger once. I will be one no more.
But this world is full of broken things.

"The Unquiet" -John Connolly

I was reading through my archives and stumbled upon one of my entries on this. And still, it makes sense.

2009-08-09T08:36:00.004+08:00

As you feel that time has come to a stand still
you began to slow ur pace and take a closer look at your surrounding.

This site's getting stale.
I will blog more often when I'm done with my exams on wednesday. ! ((:

I miss how we could still camwhore despite anxiously studying for test last minute.
I miss the intense anxiety of practical tests and screwing things up with the manequin.
I miss it more when one after another would exit from the practical room and gather to discuss how sucky the procedures were.

Okay, shower. Btw, Happy National Day! (:

2009-08-04T23:21:00.004+08:00

I saw this video on Grace's tumblr, and I ended cracking up like a fool in front of my screen. Hahahha! Kumar is so funny with all his racist jokes.

Part One

Part Two

Part Three

And now, I'm contemplating if I should abandon Blogspot and move over to Tumblr. =/

2009-07-27T06:22:00.013+08:00

Just when I thought the story was slowly becoming impeccable, it ended with a twist.

I woke up as early as 6ish today. And I couldnt get back to sleep thereafter. Probably the weather was too cold. It must be the weather.

J dude, when're u bringing me out for beef ribs? I need ur listening ears. I ~~want~~ needa rant at you, again.

I hate econs. And I needa club yo.

2009-07-24T13:01:00.004+08:00

This site is getting mundane, cos I'm losing all the motivation to blog. ):

Audrey left for Cambodia, Shuwen left for Holland. I also wanna go overseas. Anyways, met up Jolyn, Jeanna at Orchard yesterday. Thereafter I left for Mr Punch to meet Garry. Though it was a short meet up cos I needed to go for lesson, but it was good. His suggestion of going to UK sounded awesome, but I'm not gonna have enough money for the trip, at least not for now or the near future.

Econs class was so boring. And I so wished it could get as interesting as Law. Furthermore, sisJean wasnt with me, which made it worse. But before I left, I made a few friends who were sitting near me. (:

And I ripped this photo from FB. I cant rmb when this was taken, prolly should be quite a long while back.
Anyhow. Ladies, find a day we go badminton k. !

And I also wanna make cheesecake at Linda's place. It's been so long since we did something like that together. ):
I'm always seeing Jeanna and Jolyn. The others are like in Mars.
So take a break from ur busy schedule and let's make cheesecake. ! ^^

I shall go mob now.

2009-07-15T23:46:00.000+08:00

To judge is sordid.
To be judged wrongly, is, crestfallen.

Sorry folks, I haven't been updating. Been busy with my bridging modules, which I really really can't wait to complete it. And I'm able to blog now cos I'm done with accounts. Accounts is just so tedious. And I'd rather write tons and tons of essays in exchange for all these calculations. =/

And it was my bff's birthday on friday. I'm sorry that I wasnt able to accompany her till late night. But nonetheless, I love you rebek. <3

Happy belated birthday hon. ! ^^

Oh btw, it was really nice of Julian to get me a pair of earrings from Taiwan (I think). And the way he surprised with the gift is so cute. ! Hahhaha!

Anyhow, the earrings are nice. !^^

Yay. ! And I can't wait to watch Harry Potter. I can't wait to play. Cos I feel like I'm so tied down by this bridging course. :(

2009-07-07T23:09:00.019+08:00

Happy Birthday threesome. ^^
Love you plenty plenty.
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥. !

(Woman, dont bottle ur feelings up k. You know we're always here to lend you our shoulders.
I love you.)

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥!

I've got a lot to say. But I think I'll just leave it till tmr.
And since I've missed Her Story the previous time, I really really want to go for the Butch Hunt at Zouk with Kayminn and Grace this Thursday.

I Want To Go. I Want To Go. I Want To Go.

but i got school. :(

2009-07-02T22:41:00.031+08:00

Thumbs up for the Cambodia trip. Prolly more of an exposure for me. And I'm ashamed to say, but I didnt really miss anyone back home. Prolly cos of the company I've had, which made the trip a lot more fun.

The only time when I missed people was the 6 hours bus ride from Siem Reap to Phnom Penh. Like how Jolyn was telling me she had 5 days of afternoon shifts during my absence, how Linda told me to buy things back (which I totally didnt), how SF was telling me bout Pol Pot which gave me reasons to look forward to the trip. And how Mom didnt worry so much cos of the assurance she got from Eugene etc etc.

Samuel took a lot of photos, but I guessed he only uploaded a portion of it. Prolly he's lazy or for wadever reasons, which I'm really thankful for. Cos he snapped nothing bout me but unglam faces.

I'll just show some photos here. The rest, I guess you peeps have prolly seen it on FB alr.

Siem Reap

Our guesthouse.

Stalls along the road.

Salon opened by trans.

The fried rice/noodle man

His shop, which we settled down for our lunch.

A visit to the residents who lives on water.

Their school for children

The basketball court

And I love the sky there. ! ^^

The naughty children.

Dining. A rather posh place for us alr, despite having bats and insects flying around.

Cheap steamboat dinner.

Tower for prolly 6SGD.

Thumbs up for the massage. !

Children doing hard-selling.

Their rubbish bin.

AngKor Wat.

the very distorted temple.

And I quite like this shot.

And I super love this candid shot. ! (:

Phnom Penh

Basically there isnt anything in Siem Reap for me to reminisce. Instead, I prefer Phom Penh. ^^

University of Cambodia.

Locals doing exercise.

Then, we did likewise and exercise to the music ^^

Some of us exercised with 2 left feet.

Dark clouds which made me feel relieve cos I really abhor the hot sun. But apparently, the dark clouds didnt stay for long ):

Birds of the same feather flocked together cos of the threatening dark clouds.

Tuk-tuk.

The Casino we visited, and won like 2SGD for each of us.

Tuol Sleng Museum, something which I was looking forward to for this trip.

A school which had turned into a genocide location.

The absurd rules people have to follow under Pol Pot, if not they'll be eletricuted.

steel bed which many had laid on for torture.

Shackles which chained many.

Samuel snapped me off guard. And later on, he saw some random poster with a fella doing similar action. So that explains the picture. Not funny.

Outside Killing field.

The place where the skulls are being kept.

Cruel Pol Pot.

Seeing little children in Cambodia somehow taught me self contentment.

That's wad happened when 9 are squeezing in a car. But really, sitting in an opened car boot during rides are more enjoyable than anywhere else in the car. (:

S'pore embassy.

The Hospital.

Random dumping ground.

The clinic.

Interesting petrol kiosk

Their street foods.

At airport with the tuk-tuk driver.

Home.!

To think that it was gonna be thunderstom for the whole 6 days, I brought thick raincoats. But apparently, the weather was hot. Scorching Hot. Hotter than S'pore. That explains my shag face and all, cos we did a lot of walking as well. Now, one of my arms got 2 tone of colours :(

<3

Yay. ! I've finished my assignment for now. And I'm done with blogging.
It's like 5 plus now, and I should really really head to bed, since I've finally got my body clock tuned back after much effort.

2009-06-28T23:56:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY KAY MINN.! :D

I've reached home. I'm tanned, I gained weight. I look horrid.
Hahaha. ! I'll prolly talk bout the trip when I've got the photos.

2009-06-22T01:35:00.003+08:00

I can't help it but to post this video up.

A little passe. But this is really nice. ^^
And I gotta get packing now. (:

2009-06-19T13:11:00.006+08:00

I prolly wont be updating till I return from my backpacking trip.

Oh, and I just ripped a picture from fb.

Byebye friends.

Hello Cambodia. (:

2009-06-13T01:52:00.040+08:00

I've finally gotten the photos of my aunt's wedding last week.
In all, it was basically a very simple affair. ^^

A peek at the groom from upstairs.

Martel dessert drink.

To my grandparents.

Offerings to the groom's grandpaps.

My arm looks huge here. :(

Motherly love. <3

My very dearest aunty <3

So that is it. And I still love my pink nails. ^^

2009-06-12T02:50:00.003+08:00

I've changed my nail colours to pink. ^^
And I've suggested to Jolyn that we should try Yellow painted nails on her birthday party.

Talking bout Jolyn's party, I dont think I'd spend buying another boyfriend shirt.
I'll prolly search my wardrobe again =/

2009-06-06T23:22:00.007+08:00

I finally saw BFF today. I enjoyed her company and pizzahut treat.! And I anticipate more outings with her (since she claims that I've got different cravings every week) before she leaves for Shanghai in September. :(
I love you <3

Yesterday met up with Jolyn and Jeanna. So while they got busy preparing the slideshow for Jolyn's birthday, I just gave some comments. Hah, so Jeanna left us and we went to Marina Square thereafter.

It was catching up cum farewell session for Wenshao. Throughout the whole night, I was just bursting into laughter. So much that my mouth felt tired, literally.

The dont-have-commando-face-at-all commando to be.

And I like this effect on Linda. ^^

Without a doubt, Wenshao likes to read magazine with me. And now, I see one more joining me soon.

Take care dude. Remember to love your friends, and love your mom too.

(ps: your blog cracks me up. And I think ur mom's sarcasm is cute. Hahahha!)

2009-06-05T02:28:00.009+08:00

Again, I've kept myself at home for 2 days.
And again, I've been thinking.

After what Josco said, now that I look back at the past 20 years, I realised I havent enjoyed life. No, not that my life has been miserable, just that it hasnt been fulfulling enough. I spent 16 years going to school, 14 years studying for exams. If I die tmr, I'll regret spending so many years studying.

Back then, we were taught to have big dreams, big goals. As cliche as it sounds, many shared similar goals of becoming doctors, lawyers and whatnot.

But as we grew older, the results we achieved in school became demoralising. Then, we began to put ourselves in denial by lowering our expectations. And as we near adulthood, our dreams start to become vague and secondary. All we'd need is a job. Even if there isnt passion, it no longer matters. As long a job that provides good and stable income, we'd grab.

And then, we'd forget to slow down life, and take a good look at things around us. We'd began to overlook our surroundings and take every person and thing for granted.

We aim for different goals. We'd make different achievements climbing the corporate ladder. Some aim high. While others, they'd prolly end up staying stagnant. But eventually, we'd all reach to a common peak- Death.

“Live every day as if it were your last, because one of these days, it will be.”

2009-06-03T23:57:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was my aunt's wedding. I'll prolly talk bout it when I've uploaded the pictures here.

Anyways, I felt so tired the night before that I woke up at 5 this evening. Jio-ed Josco out for dinner, since I got really hungry and was craving for HK Cafe. But whenever we meet, it's always at Whitesands. If not, Tampines. Prolly cos I'm always suggesting impromptu meet ups, and I'm glad he's often so agreeable to it.! ^^

Basically, I had a peanut butter toast followed by fillet cheesy bake rice, followed by a bowl of dessert. Thereafter, we strolled along the park since I didnt wanna go home so early. We chatted quite a lot, as usual whenever we meet up. He was sharing his business, ideas and such which somehow, got me really interested. :p

Dude, faster ORD and travel.! And I'm sorry that I can't be of help to ur problem. But it's okay rite, I know I'm still ur friend. ^^

2009-05-29T23:57:00.002+08:00

It was a time well spent with Kellyn. Thumbs up for Aston's, though the queue was really long.
We basically just window-shopped thereafter. And of cos, endless crapness and laughter. ^^

I think I should figure out the functions of my camera more often. Cos after Kellyn did, I realise that my camera's capable of making people horrid. And compare to Kellyn's, her camera took really nice shots. :(

I should've given the same expression. :(

And I thank Big G, for you. <3

2009-05-28T23:41:00.031+08:00

To my dearest friend, Kellyn

Talking to u on MSN made me tear. I dont know how it happened, they just fell. Partly becos my playlist was playing With Heart and Voice, partly becos I miss you.

And partly, becos the thought of band flooded my mind. Like how we seven ended up in band altogether, how enjoyable our Aussie trip was, how splendid our Sydney Opera House performance turned out. And most importantly, how I sat beside you almost everyday for 3 years where we ranted, gossiped and bickered about anything and everything. And times where we dreaded school and couldnt wait to graduate. Now that we look back, we took those for granted.

Just as the way things have turned out, I'm crestfallen too. And like you said, it's like an old wound being hurt over and over again.
But come what may, dont give up. Becos I love you, a lot.

You're my friend. Always. ♥

(PS: See, I reformatted my com. And it took my ages looking through my archives just to get that candid photo. Am I nice or nice? ^^)

Yesterday was spent at Lunar. The pole dance was pretty mediocre, not as extreme as I expected. Then we left for Rebel. I didnt enjoy, cos music wasnt nice. :(

Jeanna: I wanna be Christine, finding my angel of music.

March: Oh you mean Phantom?

Samuel, I finally see your smile shining through. ^^

I'm sorry Gracie, I didnt mean to cut you off so nicely. :(

I'm getting sleepy. And another of my toe nail fell off. :(

2009-05-26T23:56:00.001+08:00

Outing with Jeanna and Jolyn today was as usual. Just that whenever we shop, I'd be so afraid that I'll end up splurging. Nonetheless, I'm quite happy that I had only spent on buying sanitary pads for emergency.

I was happy to see Jolyn, cos I havent seen that girl for quite a while (one week to be exact). ^^

Anyway, when we went into Topshop, Jolyn was like saying she wasnt going to buy anything, and I was pretty certain that I was going to spend some money there.

I quite like the purple toga dress, partly becos it was very fitting and suits my body shape . But in the end, I left the shop empty handed. :(

Instead, it was Jeanna and Jolyn who got themselves some basic tops.

Yo Jolyn.! You should just spend less time at work, and more time with me.!

Sigh, and shopping's sucha love-hate thang.
Can shop cannot buy. Can shop cannot buy. Can shop cannot buy.

I. Must. Save.

2009-05-25T22:19:00.001+08:00

Work has been pretty fulfilling last week. ! Other than that, I didnt really go out much. And I feel that only with friends, I can enjoy work. :(

<333!

Failed attempt on Lunar last week. In the end, it was KTV pubbing again. I think I should really scrimp and save (which I'm still trying very hard to do so). I've been taking up jobs these days just so I'd have enough money to spend for my luxuries. =/

Janica, my duet partner. ^^

Elaine. !

With dont-know-how-to-smile teacher to be.

Ciao. I'm tired.

2009-05-19T17:57:00.013+08:00

I hate the word Family.

Saturday's roadtrip was quite a failure, but I guess compared to those usual chill-outs, roadtrip's fun-er.

We reached Fort Canning at around 12ish. And as spotted, we caught a couple making out in their car. So we parked the car diagonally opposite them. We quickly shone the highbeam at them and snapped a shot. But somehow, Sam's DSLR didnt work properly. =/

After a while, we left for Sentosa. The resorts there were niceee. But as we walked further away from the resort, I felt a little scared. Cos the parks were so dark and quiet.

As we were walking, I thought beside me was a twig or some branches. So we stopped for a while when Sam went,

Sam: "Eh, wad's that?"

Me: "Dunno leh.!"

Sam: "Omg, it's a snake.!"

Yes, It was right underneath my nose. And my legs were right front of its mouth (there, standing prolly at the outer white line). I literally screamed and ran. ! (In fact, we all screamed)

Fortunately, the snake was still. But before we could take a picture, a speeding van was approaching, so we were shouting and waiving to the driver. The driver ignored us, prolly cos he thought we were trying to hitch a ride or something. So it drove the snake over.

The snake curled up, and when we ran closer, it was no longer there already. =/

Bumpy car ride.

We left Sentosa for Maris Stella School. The school's like situated next to a cemetery, and exploring the place in wee hours of the night gave me a lot of goosebumps.

And since Eugene was from there, he led us around the place.

Most of the time when we were in there, I felt quite scared. Cos everywhere was dark.

the only 2 areas that were lighted.

We caught 2 fellas in the canteen, and we thought there was some camp in school or something. But apparently, there shouldnt be any since it was exam period.

Then they headed to downstairs soon after. We became curious eventually and went downstairs to check it out. Surprisingly, there were quite a handful of PRCs living in a small room. and they werent students =/

We headed to BoonKeng Macs for breakfast thereafter. And by the time Eugene fetched me home, it was already close to 6. I still felt pretty energized though! :p

Yesterday started off with Karen asking me out for Lunch. ! Right timing, since I've been craving for Pepperlunch last week. And it was nice to see Shuwen and Terence again. Of cos even better to see Karen after her return from the states. ^^

Know how to mess hair only.

Yo karen. ! I know you never get anything for me from States.

Nevermind, you still my friend. :(

Heavenly. ^^

I'm like wasting myself away at home. And somehow, I cant wait to work this week. Prolly cos the thought of working with SisJean and Audrey excites me. ^^

2009-05-16T19:23:00.003+08:00

"Before i met you
life was slow-mo, so slow-mo.
I thought i had it figured out,
but you came and turned my whole world upside down."

I've finally got my 88 colours of eyeshadow palette. ! ^^
Okay, actually I've gotten it since last week already.

I'm looking forward to June, and I hope the trips will materialise soon. =/

2009-05-12T23:56:00.001+08:00

We did this till almost 5am.
And Eugene Wong, go buy webcam. You desperately need one.

Last night's jamming session was quite disastrous. Prolly cos it's my first time, and it was a pretty impromptu one.

Furthermore, I was supposed to play the drums, which I totally cant make it. Sighh, I still rmb seeing the percussion people play during band, they how zai laaa. ! :(
So in the end, I just used the mic and sing.

Anyways, I wish friday could approach faster. I dread work.

2009-05-10T20:29:00.006+08:00

Eugene brought us for some Dim Sum at Chinatown for brunch yesterday. We basically spent the whole entire day in Chinatown. It was followed by desserts at 记得吃. ^^

Thereafter, we were feeling quite lost cos we didnt really have any place in mind to go.

And since Eugene was so keen on Spa, we went scouting for the best bargain.

Having to expose my boobs to the masseur was quite weird initially, but the body massage was awesome (Ladies, find a day we go together k).! ^^

I waited for them for a while more since they wanted to shower. We then roamed around Chinatown to check out some unheard of movies. And finally, we made a decision for some drinks at Boat Quay.

Samuel, pay me and I'll teach you smile better than this. ^^

Of cos the one acting damn zai is the best laaa!

We played a bit of games, then I got a little tipsy. As usual, I became loud.

Sighh, and the rashes on my arms became more prominent. So they started teasing me with my rough arms. Stupid Eugene, still somemore compared it with sand paper. :(

We left around 12ish for some supper and took a cab home. They dropped me off at Selegie since Don Mom and Aunt were there for Tau Huay. Mom and Aunt were laughing cos I was talking very loudly. =/

When I met them today, my aunt was still teasing me about it. And I gave nothing but a tight hug to mom just now. Hahaha.! I know, genuine.

Happy Mother's day btw. ^^

I've been out with the 2 guys for food these days. And I've already gained back those kilos that I've just lost last week. :(

And I hope tmr's briefing would be good. At least that would keep me alive for the next 3 days. Nono, It is going to be good tmr. It just is.

2009-05-08T20:15:00.014+08:00

Other than girlfriends, I've been like seeing the two above on an almost-every-other-day-till-late-night basis. But thankfully, Eugene sent me home.
And I really really appreciate it. Thanks mister. ^^

I'm very tired, like I'm having some serious lack of sleep these days. :(

I just visited a skin specialist for my face. And it was $157, with some sample-bottled sizes of cleanser and toner for me.
To begin with, I dont really know why I needed to see the doc.
So it better be some miraculous cleanser.

Anyways, I've got quite a few things in mind. They've been like bugging me since almost forever.

First, school.
Second, hair.
Third, weight.
Fourth, work.

And thinking of work, I need to find some source of motivation. Now.

2009-05-04T06:29:00.013+08:00

I went back to sleep after waking for an hour or so at 3ish on Saturday. So I prolly woke up at 6pm, just the right time for me to shower and head out. Hahaha! ^^

Met the usual at PS, and walked over to Pool Junction at IOI Plaza.

I like the ambience there. ! And I thought we ordered a lot.
Louis joined us thereafter. When the three fellas got high, we girls got really worried. Becos we didnt know how to handle them. lol.!

And since Eugene was bored, I got him and Samuel to join us. ! ^^

I was initally afraid that both the guys might get shy and feel outta place. But I guess my worry was kinda redundant. ^^

Wenshao was getting red and high. Or either that, I'm too fair.

Hahahha! And Audrey came and joined us! ^^

Louis, who got really high.

He drank a lot cos he kept losing in the dice game. Ahh, he even asked me to help him drink at the end. But I didnt dare, cos Eugene was asking if I could drive his car later on =/

Turned out, Eugene also took a cab down with Samuel -.-"

Hahah, so since he was cabbing down already, I decided to play and drink only a little, cos I set my mind not to drink at all earlier in the evening.

But in the end, I got a little high with some of them as well. =/

The classic singers.

I ended up drinking more than a little. And both my poor friends said they felt cheated, cos they didnt wanna drink so much. Hahaha!

So while we were playing with dices, others were busy camwhoring. Like the two below.

Ah, if I knew I would've drank for him a little.

Aww, and how can I forget my dearest junior. My lucky charm for Mahjong that night for making me almost the sole loser.

Hor kayminn hor?

By the time it was 2 plus, we left for Linda's to play Mahjong. I didnt sleep much, and some of the guys didnt sleep at all either. Sighh, but Louis left earlier even before the sun rised.

When it was 9ish, Linda woke Jeanna and Audrey up. We headed to Whampoa Market for breakfast while Samuel and Eugene cabbed back home.

I slept through the afternoon when I reached home.
And then, trained down to Bugis for OG with the Mom and aunt, and some dinner as well. ^^

Gosh, my body clock has really gone haywire.
Right now, time reads 06:26.

I needa sleep already, since I've got an interview later in the afternoon together with Audrey and Jean. =/

PS: Come online for photos. I uploaded in wee hours just for you girls hokay. ^^

2009-05-02T23:55:00.001+08:00

Yesterday saw me lunching with girlfriends. And I'm so happy to see Meilin, cos I havent seen her for quite a while. Hahaha!

Jolyn and Meilin left thereafter, then the rest of us headed to Bugis street. And Linda purchased eye lashes. I was very eager to see her putting it up. ! Prolly cos I've never seen it done before. So after Kellyn did it for her, it really enhanced her eyes.!
But I think it's too much a trouble to put it on. Hahaha!

Long time no see woman. !

The lady who gives usual-priceless expressions.

Hahaha! Nonetheless, love you still.

And my body clock's really going awry. :(

2009-05-01T03:47:00.000+08:00

Yesterday's bbq was good. ! I went to the Wholesale centre to collect the food, and by the time the fire got started, it was already around 6ish. I think I ordered too much food though, cos there was a lot of leftovers when the bbq ended. =/

And I didnt take pictures at all with my camera. I forgot all about it after dealing with the food and whatnot. :(

The youths. ! ^^

Showing off.

Mom came over pretty late. And when everything ended, some of us decided to head elsewhere. Eugene suggested Keppel Bay, and since three of us never been there before, I guessed we all agreed on that. ^^

I think Keppel Bay's really a nice place to chill and lax. (Ladies, find a day we go there k!) So basically, we just laid there and chatted for prolly 2 hours.
And we saw a shooting star. ! ^^
Hahah, and by the time we left there, it was already close to 2.

So Samuel drove us back Pek Kio. We dropped Janica off first, then headed to Samuel's to get Eugene's car. And thankfully Eugene sent me home.! ^^

Oh. ! And I think someone hacked into my dashboard. I think a lot of people know my password to my facebook, msn and blogger already. =/

2009-04-29T23:56:00.003+08:00

"Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move."

My mood's like in the worse state ever, and I find it hard to figure any reason that's causing it.

I'm bemused.
I just need a huge hot waffle plus chocolate fudge brownie ice cream. Now. :(

2009-04-26T23:56:00.031+08:00

Yesterday started off with me dragging myself outta bed at 10ish.
And I still couldn't find my bikini paddings. So I just wore an orange top :(

Met Tiac Woo, Wenshao, Louis and Jeanna at Vivo.
And it has been quite a while since I saw Tiac. That fella's still the same, so crappy laaa. ! And it's been almost forever since I last saw Louis.!

Anyways, the sun was really scorching hot. So much that I secretly wished it'd rain. But it didnt, so sun tanning session was carried out as planned :(

Hey sisjean. !

Jeanna being 38.

While they were so eager to sunbathe, I was totally not keen. So while they were tanning, I slept under a tree throughout the whole session.

But I could still feel the sun shining right at my face. !

No kidding, but I had my dress on my face throughout. I was so afraid of the sun. And more so afraid of the freckles :(

Yo ~~tourist~~ Jolyn. ^^

Louis. ! Nice catching up with him. ^^

Thereafter, it was dinner at Aston's, followed by coffee at starbucks in Cathay. Quite happening this time, since there was a commotion. Basically, China-Chinese ladies got offended when a S'porean couple labelled them as China idiots.

But ultimately when the security guards came, they told the local couple to go off. It pissed one of the Chinese lady and she cried. =/

I became tired prolly cos I only had 5 hours of sleep the night before. Nonetheless, since Linda and Jolyn were meeting Jeanna at Cityhall, they walked me to Chijmes. !

Met Garry and his friends. Really, the whole atmosphere was so much better compared to the last time. And the experience was much better than I expected (at least I felt liverpool there).

I couldnt hold my bladder further, so I was at toilet when Eugene sms-ed me saying that he was at Harry's. I went looking for him, but outside was really packed. I didnt manage to find him even when we were on the phone :(

And he went off shortly after to prepare for his Man U match. Ahh, he was just there to support Hull anyway. ! Hahahha!

(P.S Eugene: I know ur reading. I'm giving you wad you wanted. Not only did I mention ur name, I gave you one whole paragraph hokay! Uhh, all for my niceness. But you so know I'm gonna need your help this week. Tehee! :p )

Anyway back to it, the ride home with Garry's friends was hilarious. Though crude, but it totally cracked me up.! But again, I felt bad that they needed to send me home.

And to think Eugene sms-ed me at 2ish, with "Glory glory Man United",

the next thing I saw was Man U all over Facebook. :s

I hate to admit, but I think my interest for football's like slowly growing.

When I talked to Jeanna about Liverpool's today, I was surprised when she said she was watching Man U match last night (note: Jeanna was never interested in football as well)!

And she was telling me how good Man U was etc.

Ahh, I cant believe when she said she supports Man U.

I should've catch that match.!

Sighh, everyone's like supporting a team laaa! I think I need too, soon.! =/

2009-04-25T01:43:00.003+08:00

I lost my bikini paddings. I've searched the whole wardrobe and it's like both are gone, and I dont know if Jo had thrown them away :(

I need/have to buy a new one. With paddings intact.

Anyways, I saw linda's entry. Ehh woman, dont be sad. it's tough but it's really worth it to move on. Cast aside those hypothetical maybes, and things might just fall into place nicely. Kick those bittersweet relationships away. !

Indeed there's always a reason why some choose to put friendships above all else. Becos at the end of the day, they're the ones we can really rely on.

And for now, with a glimpse of hope, I shall continue my search. =/

2009-04-22T23:58:00.002+08:00

Met up with Audrey to collect pay yesterday. Thereafter, headed to Marina Square to meet the others and we caught 17 again.!

We surprised Yanqi since she was working there. And thereafter, waited for her to knock off and headed down to Cityhall. Oh, and we bumped onto Hazel. !

YAY! I CANT WAIT FOR POLKA! Okay, prolly even happier that POLKA's changed to a yearly thang. ^^

Greatest chemistry.

We parted and I went to meet Garry thereafter. I got a little surprised when Jolyn gave up her bus and tagged along. Hahaha! Nothing much to comment on the football match. But his friends are pretty cordial. And it was really nice of them to send me home. ^^

I totally zonked out when I reached home.

So I slept through the morning today, and met up with the 2 lovelies at Bugis at around 3ish. ! Roamed around, and I brought them to Miss Clarity to kill time.

Roamed again around Raffles City, and we left for Jurong Point to meet Gracey for dinner. ! ^^

I was craving for desserts, so much that I gave up dinner. ! And the desserts there are really awesome. !

I need to get some exercise done by this weekend. And Ms Mense came at the wrong time this month :(

2009-04-18T20:51:00.008+08:00

It's like rediscovering Eden, with chocolate coated rainbows and cotton candy skies.

Radin Mas Heritage Challenge.

Met up with Samuel at Harbourfront, and we made our way to the hardcourt. So Gabriel was already there, and we made a new friend, Veronica. ! ^^

It started off with registration and whatnot. Then we all changed into the shirt that was given to us.

This whole heritage challenge was really testing our physical limit. And I realised that it has been a very very very long time since I felt so exhausted from all the running and brisk walking.

We basically just went on foot from one checkpoint to another. The only time when took bus was to Bukit Merah. And really, Gabriel was like the only one who never felt tired la. ! He was walking so fast (prolly due to his mega tall-ness), we were catching up with him by jogging most of the time.

Prolly the only mistake I made was to wear slippers. I expected this heritage thing to be more lax. But really, I was always the last one lagging behind. :(

But I've got an encouraging team. ! No thousand bucks, but we won the best couple award!

I'm having 2 blisters on each of my foot. They almost took my life when I had my shower. And I foresee there's more to come tmr. My thighs are gonna ache, badly.

And I had my face exposed to the hot hot sun for 2 hours. I'm now very very very scared that freckles will appear.
Sighh, if only dark clouds came just now, it'd prolly motivate me a bit more. :(

The whole thing ended prolly close to 8. And I was thankful that I could get a lift from Gabriel cos I was really tired.

Sorry lovelies, for not able to make it to Cathay to meet the girls for dinner and drinking. =(

ps: I'm hooked onto Corrinne May's again.

2009-04-18T00:54:00.004+08:00

每一个女孩的身边都有一个不是男朋友的男朋友

但是，为了什么原因你们没能在一起？
也许他为了朋友之间的义气，不能追你。
也许为了顾及家人的意见，你们没有在一起。
也许为了出国深造，他没有要你等他。

也许你们相遇太早，
还不懂得珍惜对方。

也许你们相遇太晚，
你们身边已经有了另一个人。

也许你回头太迟，
对方已不再等待

也许你们彼此在捉摸对方的心，
而迟迟无法跨出界线。

不过即使你们没在一起，
你们还是保持了朋友的关系。

但是你们心底清楚，
对这个人，你比朋友还多了一份关心。

即使不能跟他名正言顺的牵着手逛街，
你们还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。

他有喜欢的人，你口头上会帮他追，
心里却不是很清楚你是不是真的希望他追到。

他遇到困难时，
你会尽你所能的帮他，
不会计较谁又欠了谁。

男女朋友吃醋了，
你会安抚他们说你和他只是朋友，
但你心中会有那么一丝的不确定。

每个人这辈子，
心中都有过这幺一个特别的朋友，
很矛盾的行为。

一开始你不甘心只做朋友的，
但久了，突然发现这样最好。

你宁愿这样关心他，
总好过你们在一起而有天会分手。

你宁愿做他的朋友，
彼此不会吃醋，才可以真的无所不谈。

特别是这样，
你还是知道，
他永远会关心你的。

做不成男女朋友，
当他那个特别的朋友，
有什么不好呢？

你心中的这个特别的朋友...? 是谁呢？

很多的感情，
都因为一厢情愿，
最后连朋友都当不成了

常常觉得惋惜，
可惜一些本来很好的友情

最后却因为对方的一句喜欢你，
如果你没有反应，这一段友情似乎也难以维持下去，
这也难怪有些人会因此不肯踏出这一步。

因为这就像是一场赌注，
表白了之后不是成了男女朋友，
要不就连朋友都当不成了。

有些事不是你能预料的，或许对方不在意，
你们还可以是朋友，但却已经不如从前的好。

I got this from Mulvis' fb, and I think every sentence of it makes so much sense. Especially those that I highlighted in red. And the former, it cracked me up a little when I read them cos it just sounded so true (dont laugh at me, I know it happens to you too honey :p)

Kbye.

2009-04-16T23:42:00.002+08:00

While I was facebooking, I stumbled upon some pictures on Stonehenge. It makes me really envious. Somehow, reminds me that my wishlist is getting more far-fetch after every birthday :(

Anyways, yesterday was awesome. !

I still prefer simple painted nails. Hahaha! :p

After Jolyn had her nails done, we headed down to phuture. There was really a massive human congestion. Nonetheless, a good time spent. !^^

Thereafter, Don fetched us home. Kay and Jean stayovered at my place. So they took over my bed, and I spent the night watching tv, surfing net, mobbing tv. But not sleeping :(

Then Jeanna woke up halfway in wee hours saying she was hungry. So I cooked some porridge for her. Kay woke up too, and watched a bit of CSI with me. Thereafter, both went back to sleep again. -.-

Since Jeanna needed to reach Raffles by 1, I got them up at around 11ish to wash up and shower. And when we reached UOB, I found a picturesque view from the 55th level.

click on it.!

Roamed around, then headed to school to get transcript. But I think I'll have to make another trip down next week =/

I was so surprised to see Elaine there also. ! Then we joined classmates for dinner, and I must say that it was awesome catching up with them.

I miss them tonnes :(

2009-04-13T23:44:00.000+08:00

2009-04-11T19:25:00.009+08:00

Linda's tea really worked. Early morning my disturbed tummy got me tossed and twirled on bed. And it finally woke me from my sleep, and visited the loo prolly every half hourly :(

Audrey replaced me for work. And all the toilet visitation got me really exhausted. So I went to nap for a while in the afternoon, but only to receive call from Jean that Sook's in S'pore when I woke up. =/

Then hurried to my com and saw Sook's msg. And I totally had this smack-forehead feeling.
My intention of helping you save on ur SMS fee not only became futile, but got worse cos it made you make a wasted trip.
I'm sorrryyyy dear :((

And I saw something. StMarg's appeared on Stomp. =/

ps: Dearest Kellyn, enjoy ur trip to Melb. Dont forget to come online! ^^

2009-04-08T23:56:00.006+08:00

I overslept this afternoon, and I felt bad having to push back meeting time with Kellyn. Prolly due to my late night sleeping, my body clock's slowly going haywire. =/

Anyways we caught Shopaholic, and I thought it was nice. !
And in the midst of movie, we'er like receiving sms-es and calls that ST MARG'S BAND GOT GOLD FOR SYF! (Triple Yayness.!)

Shopped around Vivo, and the Bikini that I've been eyeing for is no longer around already. :(
Thereafter, headed to Chinatown to shop around before heading home.

For the sake of my nails, it's okay even if half my face's gone. Hahahha!

Hahaha! I'm not covering cos I'm afraid to show my lips. Just that.. I had my mani done last week! ^^

I know. It's unglam, but I thought our expressions are priceless-ly funny.

Thanks for the day honey. ! ^^

Back to SYF, I'M SO SO SO HAPPY THAT SMSB GOT GOLD. !

Listening to Jericho now, I rmb-ed our band broke down once while sight reading this piece (I wont deny I was one of the lost sheep =/ ).

And to think that my fellow band juniors played this for SYF, I'm truly proud.

2009-04-04T23:34:00.004+08:00

After so long, I'm finally learning flute again.! And I'm happy that I havent forgotten the notes that I had learned the last time. ^^

All the best to my fellow band juniors for SYF.! Wadever the result, I'm sure you girls would put ur 101% effort.

ps: I want to watch SYF. Shuwen,, help me get tickets can? :(

And for me, I shall go back to practise my 'This Old Man'. (Yes, I still havent finish the Standard of Excellence book. =/ )

2009-03-31T21:33:00.008+08:00

"I wrote you 365 letters.
I wrote you everyday for a year."

After for so long, I've finally watch The Notebook. And indeed, the storyline's really touching and heartwrenching.

2009-03-27T02:31:00.012+08:00

I'm having this intense urge to learn sports again. I so wanna take up Tennis, Touch Rugby and Floorball. But I dont know when and where I can ever learn it.
And I'm so in need of a sports partner. :(

[EDIT @ 23:45 Saturday, 28 March 2009]

Happy belated birthday Audrey, and Happy birthday TSF!

Yesterday was awesome.! Met up with Jolyn to shop at Bugis before heading over to Audrey's Party. But I still couldnt find my ideal denim shorts =/

Thereafter Jeanna came, and we made our way to Pasir Ris. So while waiting for the shuttle bus, we snapped a lil. ^^

Since we need to adhere to the dress code of being dressy, I brought my dress along to change when I reached the chalet.

It was really warm, and I was perspiring throughout the night =/

Happy 21st dearest. <3

Love you ladies. ^^

I dont know why, but they're always very alert about me going for my servings.
And I dont know why too, they're always snapping me taking food and eating. :(

So rude.! Like they're always on guard, waiting to tell the world that I eat alot.

I'm a small eater btw. ^^

<3~~Kellyn~~ Strawberry. Tsktsk, one of the many who always take photo of me whenever I take food.

Okay kidding. No matter how bad you are, I still love you more than strawberries ^^

Faiz. !<3

Becos it was so warm, we decided to head upstairs for some aircon. ! And as usual, camwhored.

Oh, and I love this photo very much.!

Then we decided to play game! I think this game can really make us lol. It was totally hilarious, cos we totally swopped our names. So it's like a challenge for us to shout out names quickly. Hahaha!

Raywne, whom I havent seen for months.! And I didnt even realise I was grabbing her hand till like that. hahhaha! Love her. <3

Audrey's birthday cake, which tasted really heavenly. The cream was just so light and soft. !

Happy Birthday. !

da jiejie, I think u look very chio here ^^

* I wish March and I can go Aussie study together.

Photo with Sixies. !

With Bandmates! ^^

Linda jie, how's ur eyes?

Hey you sisjean.! I'm not gonna feed you tmr for Mahjong.!

Audrey with her presents.

Then when the clock striked 12, another birthday arised.

Happy 20th, sookfung.!

Then the birthday girls were ordered to drink a cup of vodka orange. And silly enough, Sookfung gobbled down everything =/

And she got high.

We played games here and there, and didnt really sleep throughout the night. Thereafter, hurried down to Airport to send Sarah off for her attachment at US at bout 6ish.

And I thought Sarah's mom was quite cute, cos instead of those emo goodbyes, she kept hurrying Sarah to the departure gate. Hahhaha!

Eh sam, enjoy attachment. ! And nono, dont think of Durians.^^

Us sending her off.

Bye woman. ! Aww, and I see your eyes. :D

Thereafter, we lingered in T3 for bout 20 mins before sending Meilin off for her attachment in Aussie. !

Sighh, Jolyn's somewhere around. <3

I love seeing Sunrise from the Airport, cos it never fails to make me feel nostalgic for the time when we went overseas together. And now seeing friends going away, I'm yearning for my turn.

After Meilin left, some went back to the resort. While I went home to shower (I didnt shower the whole night depite having perspired alot), and I met them again for Mahjong at Audrey's.
I think by the time everything ended, we were on the verge of getting zonked out.

And thinking of Audrey's staying at CCk, journey home was an arduous one. Prolly the ugliest during the train ride. Hahaha!

And it's Mahjong at Shuwen's tmr. Kbye.

2009-03-25T12:41:00.007+08:00

It's refreshing to revise MrsTowey's vocab book again.

Update laters.

[EDIT]

Met Jean and Grace to bum around cityhall area. Yay! and Grace pon Soccer practice to join us for dinner! And it's good to see Sisjean again after a week or so.! ^^

On a happier note, Grace showed me the new functions on the camera! And I think it's really nice. We kept trying out the functions till the battery went flat, that's why no more photos after starbucks.

I quite like this picture. ^^

Grace: eh, si ghin nah. Can dont so SBB anot? (si ban ban)

Jean: I where got si ban ban!

Grace, I think you look quite nice in this shot. But somehow the focal point doesnt seem to be on your upper body. =/ (Hahahhah!)

I absolutely love this colour accent thing. ^^

Aww grace, ur lips. Sexy.

Somebody, shoot my eyebags. -.-

恶魔下凡。

I somehow forgot that I was suppose to meet bff today. Sorry :(

Nonetheless, Audrey's chalet starts tmr. !

But I'm thinking of staying home the whole day tmr, so that I can restrict my food intake. Furthermore, I havent had a proper rest at home ever since exam ended =/

Oh grace! organise for rebel soon k.! Ciao.

2009-03-24T23:29:00.008+08:00

Today saw me with Sarah and Sook. We basically went CBD area for Korean lunch. And to think that I've eaten lunch before meeting them. I'm putting on kilos. Not funny.

The pancake is awesome.!

Thanks uh sookie :(

We caught Hotel for Dogs at Cine thereafter, and I thought the movie was just mediocre =/

Then met up with Kellyn at Far East for dinner. ! ^^

love you two.! <3

Oei Sarah, I think u look good here. Sighh, but the pic quality not good :(

Indo dinner.

Thereafter, Sarah introduced to us Slice. ! and the desserts were nice. !

Two thumbs up for the sliced ice!

The ice was sliced, and it tasted pretty smooth!

Classic

Normal.

I'm pretty crestfallen that my pictures quality wasnt that good. But I'll choose to believe Sookfung that it's the high ISO that's causing it. =/

We basically consumed cuisines from the regional countries today. I've gained much calories.

That's it. Tmr's gonna be a good day home till dinner time when I meet bff. !

Anyway, as I was on the way home the other day, I happened to see a couple walking hand in hand. The guy was limping, due to some amputation or joint dysfunction on his feet. While the lady, her hand was amputated.

The very scene is still stuck in my head, becos it makes me reflect. A lot.

And the courage they took to overlook the flaws of their other half, it's arduous. But truly admirable.

2009-03-22T13:54:00.006+08:00

Surprised farewell dinner on Friday at Dempsey for Sarah before she leaves for attachment in Disneyland.! Sarah jie, I will xiang ni laaaa! :(

I was appealing to the various polys last month to try my luck and see if my O's results were good enough to get into hot hot courses. I mean, since I'm a matured student, and they would often give priority to fresh graduates. So I chose Hospitality and Tourism for all polys.
And right now, I've been accepted into Hospitality Management in NYP.

Seeing Sarah going away for attachment, I'm so keen for NYP. =/
Sigh, so it was either Diploma in Hospitality, or Bachelor in Hospitality.

Firstly I wanted to do a Diploma all over again cos mine's a private dip after all. Okay, that's prolly the main reason that I'm hesitating if I should continue my Bachelor.
But having heard from Audrey and Sarah's opinion, I've decided to stay on for Bachelor.

Audrey's same school as laoniang. ! She's doing Marketing and Hospitality, while I'll be doing PR and Hospitality.! Hahahhah! and I've persuaded her to start school in Sept instead of May.
So we'll prolly be in same class for some modules. ! ^^

Aye Audrey jie, dont take Marketing laaaa! Take PR. ! heh! :p

And thanks to her, I've got 300 bucks out of nowhere. But I've been ordered by her, to give her 150, sighh. 命苦。
Oh, do tell me if you intend to go Murdoch. ! Trust me, it's always better to go in via recommendation. The people will treat you better. So tell me k! ^^

K update laters. Shower.

2009-03-19T23:23:00.014+08:00

Met up with Rebek today, with the intention of watching movie. But by the time we met up, it was already near to evening.
So the only objective left was to hunt the Egg Tarts stall that she was talking about last night. !

My portion of Ribs from nyny! Too huge for me to finish =/

Rebek: Eh, you got some good lian-ish cum sluttish look.

Hey bff, I think u look really good in this photo ^^

I dont know wad was wrong. But most of the photos took in nyny somehow made it look like I just woke up =/

Thereafter headed down to Suntec, and I was really eager to try the Egg Tarts. !

I bought 12 to Owen. ! And everyone said that it was awesome.!

Prolly cos it wasnt too sweet, which suits everyone's taste. ! :D

I especially like the cheese, simply cos the melted cheese at the base tasted awesome. Oh, and the Chocolate and Original too.! ^^

<3!

I quite like this shot. ! hahhaha!

Egg tarts, Yumyum.!

My Dearest dearest, dearest aunt <333

And Mumaye. To me, you'll always be pretty. Always.

<333

Aunts and Mum. <333!

<333

2009-03-16T23:56:00.002+08:00

<3333!

Met up with Rebek today. And I think He's Just Not That Into You is awesome. !
It was definitely a good time spent, and I love her tonnes! ^^

2009-03-15T23:21:00.003+08:00

I dont mind squeezing through crowds for 2 days, just to give myself a happily ever after.
I'm happy with my new cam. ! ^^

2009-03-14T09:31:00.004+08:00

Interesting conversation I had with a 14 year old just now. Pretty lengthy, but I've already shortened it alot already.
And to protect her identity, I changed her nick to only her initials.

nw says:
jiejie how r u??
MARCH TAN; says:
erm, u are?
nw says:
mi wn. how r u??
MARCH TAN; says:
i think u've added the wrong person. =/
nw says:
wrong person???
nw says:
u ask me to add u de leh. jiejie remember last last sat?
MARCH TAN; says:
help me recall.. wad happened last last sat
nw says:
at herren mah. u ask me add u in msn. u du nno me meh??
nw says:
u are shiting jiejie rite??
MARCH TAN; says:
no, i'm so not.
nw says:
huh?? no?? i add wrong? then u r??
MARCH TAN; says:
i'm march. !
nw says:
huh?? not shiting?? nvm. anyway we can still chat?? intro
nw says:
mi 14f. u?
MARCH TAN; says:
hmm.. 20 f.
nw says:
wa..da jiejie!! u wat sch n cca de?? mi sec 2nt bbss badminton. u?? u work?
MARCH TAN; says:
schooling still. i was from stmarg's, band!
nw says:
by the way...jieije cos mi looking for shiting jieiei cos got personal questions wanna ask her...but cant find her anymore le..add to u instead..jiejie since u bigger than me...can ask u some personal questions pls pls?
MARCH TAN; says:
no prob! if i'm able to answer, i'll sure help u
nw says:
thanks da jiejie!! u so helpful n friendly though add wrong. u must help me de...k?
MARCH TAN; says:
no problem!
nw says:
erm...jieije u ever wear stockings before de?
MARCH TAN; says:
yes. ! so wad's up with stockings?
nw says:
cos mi 1st time wear stockings n feel tight uncomfort n hot de...jiejie u feel tight uncomfort when wear stockings?
MARCH TAN; says:
hmm,, i dont wear it often. but even if i do, i dont experience so much discomfort compared to u
nw says:
mi 1st timer wear stockings n feel tight uncomfort de...jiejie u what and why the occasions wear stockings de?
MARCH TAN; says:
why do u wanna wear stockings? i only wore it during my sec school days for performances
nw says:
my bf lah...he say nowadays a lot of ppl wear stockings n he say cute..and ask me to wear de
nw says:
he siao de rite? but the stockings u wear issit those long long one...wear from toes to the waist type?
MARCH TAN; says:
hahha, pantyhose
nw says:
mi also...but the stockings u wear the material...issit those very vrey thin thin material?? or those very very thick thick material de?
MARCH TAN; says:
thin i guess. so ur wearing it for ur boyfriend?
nw says:
er..ya. but my stockings is those very very thick thick material de. jie u noe those nowadays very common n popular to wear those thick stockings de? u nv wear before de?
MARCH TAN; says:
no, i dont see the need to
nw says:
but its very coommom de rite??
MARCH TAN; says:
yup! but i dont really go with the trend.
nw says:
okok. by the way..jiejie u got bf de?
MARCH TAN; says:
nope
nw says:
mi got
MARCH TAN; says:
hahaha. good for u.
nw says:
but then jie...u nv beein into relationships before dE?
MARCH TAN; says:
no, not exactly. Why?
nw says:
no? i mean as in u been into relationships? cos mi n my bf is 1st relationships de....
MARCH TAN; says:
really, i've never really been in a r/s before

Seriously, Da jiejie? Like seriously!?
And the stockings?? -.-"

Off to Shuwen's.

2009-03-13T23:59:00.006+08:00

Even before exams, I've already been all geared up for Herstory on yesterday for lesbian night. But two of Audrey's guy friends came along, so we changed location =/

And as promised, photos wont go on Facebook. Photos of the guys wont be on internet. So some ~~explicit~~ shots will not be shown.

Initially we tried Arena, but Kay was rejected from entering. So we only went in for a while.

I love their mirrors! ^^

Headed to Rebel thereafter, and it was a quiet night =/

I know I know, my arm. I need to lose fats alr :(

I love this.

So slept through the morning, then met Rebek today for IT fair. Then headed to town to meet shuwen. Then met Rui for dinner, then made an impromptu decision to go his house. So his friend came to pick us up.

Slacked in his room doing nothing other than taking pictures, and little bit of updating on some random people.

Then they shisha-ed downstairs his pool, and I gave up after taking 2 puffs.=/
Then his friend was nice enough to alight us at different locations to make our journey home easier.

Then it's Mahjong at Shuwen's tmr. Then IT fair again in the evening. Then I must get a camera.

Okay this entry is mundane.

BYE.

2009-03-12T15:40:00.011+08:00

"All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players; They have their exits and their entrances,
And one man in his time plays many parts,
His acts being seven ages. - William Shakespeare."

Blogger swallowed up my photos. And I dont think I've got time to upload it again, so I'll just post two :(

neways, chalet was good. ! It's prolly a good time spent with classmates.
I love them tonnes. ^^

I won 20 cents! ^^v

Stayed over the first night, but I couldnt get to sleep. I gave mom a ring the next morning with the intention to gossip a little, but only to receive sobbing on the other side of the phone. And I didnt mean to ps Kellyn this time. Woman, I'm sorry :(

Then Don fetched me the second night with the intention to stay over at Owen. But we headed home instead. Barely slept for 3 hours, then spent the entire day doing some stuff and running some errands.

By the time I reached home, it was already evening. And again, I didnt mean to ps Jeanna and Jolyn too, cos they were supposed to come my house :(

So neways, I was alr very tired. But somehow, I still have this auto urge to switch on the com. Subconsciously, I think this has become an addiction. And other than sleeping and chatting, I spent the whole day thinking, actively.

Witnessing people's deaths time and again, especially close ones, it often got me wondering. Wondering the process of living and exhaling the very last breath, to being dead the very next second. Wondering how one would feel going through the agony of this split second process. I guess I'll never know till my time's up. And having to live passed each day, I'm drawing nearer to putting my curiosity to rest.

You've thought of this too, havent you.?
And as wad some would put it, from the day we were born, we've been living to die.

And whoever says a second is too short a time, it isnt true. Becos one second could draw a thin refine line between live and death. I guess no one really knows the experience of it till he goes through the process himself.

And that itself, scares me.